Tuesday, May 11, 2021

The Year To Make You Wonder: What's It All For


As we three Perry teachers drove to the funeral home on our lunch hour, my stomach was in knots and I was nervous. Not about going to a funeral during COVID, but about managing myself. I had not known this child well. It didn't matter. He was 20, and he was dead. 

When I entered the funeral home, I noticed a tall, attractive young woman in a jumpsuit with stripes running toward her little waist. She was not facing me, but I was admiring the broad leather belt she had on, until she turned around. That's when I saw her hands were cuffed to the belt, and there was a woman standing behind her from a correctional institution. The young man who had been murdered had a big sister, also a Perry graduate, who was imprisoned. She was allowed out long enough to attend his viewing.

 There were children who appeared to be from a middle or elementary school there, supporting my student’s younger siblings. They were somber, sitting and standing around with their teachers. 

My student's mother kindly ushered us to his casket. Each Perry teacher I was with approached him. I took my turn. The funeral director must have stuffed my student's chest, since he had been shot in it several times before the murderer left him in his doorway, dying or dead.

My student lay there in his casket, in a perfect plaid shirt. I stared down at him. What could I say to him? Would he have been here if we had done a better job? I knew my answer. I started to apologize. I told him how sorry I was that we hadn't helped him more. That we should have done better by him. That I hadn’t gotten to know him better. That he deserved so much more. 

Two former students were also murdered, a week or so before this one. And a week after the viewing of this student, we found out that a 2019 graduate had died of a preventable health issue. Perry lost four students this year: one child who should have been graduating, and three previous graduates. "Lost," as in they are dead. 

My friend who works in the District says Pittsburgh is a bloody city. Today, a current student went through a 2018 yearbook, and pointed out dead students from that graduating class. 

 I am starting to wonder: what am I doing? 

In the six years I have been at Perry, I have had five Principals. Each of them swore they would spend forever at Perry, be true, and fix as many of our problems as they could. Each one lasted about a year and a half. Last year, the District cut five positions at our school. This year, they cut five more, including our beloved female Vice-Principal, a Spanish/Portuguese teacher, Ceramics, Choir, and a Project Manager. 

Next year, there will be no Marching Band or Instrumental Music at Perry. If the Art teacher retires and is not replaced, there will be no Art. (Hopefully the District would not allow this.) 

For the first time, I will be teaching three classes. which means I will not be able to spend the necessary time hustling for donated books. If I am not able to obtain a Library budget, I won't be able to get any new books for our students. That's bad. I have grown our Library program, and lots of eager readers through the generosity of a lot of amazing donors, led by Katha Pollitt, novelist, poet and writer at The Nation. 

Pittsburgh, what are we doing? Why are our children of so little value? Why are our schools so bereft of resources? Why do we hate our Black families so violently? Why are football and hockey teams so rich, and school libraries so poor? 

This is not a rhetorical question. I am really asking. Why? 


Thursday, December 10, 2020

The Holy Light of Manny Kolski-- Long May it Shine!!



Poland,Personally - a documentary film by Shaul Lilove from menuchati on Vimeo.


Tonight is the first night of Hanukkah, 2020. A festival of light during one of the darkest years many of us can remember? The irony of it kind of fits. Today it is almost fifty degrees in Pittsburgh, with a beautiful, cloudless blue sky. I saw an old woman walking along  William Penn Highway in Monroeville with plastic bags around her feet for shoes. She is haunting me, because I know there are so many elderly homeless people everywhere. There are cars parked for miles and miles outside our food pantries nationwide. NPR has a running list of US hospitals that are at or near capacity with COVID patients. 17 state US Attorneys agree that SCOTUS should overturn Biden’s win. I do not need to go on—you have been on bad news overload for over four years. You’ve been brutalized and flattened by bad news. We all have. We are zombies, lurching through the hellscape of “the new normal.”

And tonight, Jewish people are called to kindle light in darkness—and in so doing, BE light in darkness. How? We are as sad, defeated and frightened as everyone else. Here is one small story to share that might help—but it starts out sad. 

On November 11, 2020, Manny Kolski passed away. He was 106 years old, from Lodz, Poland, a brave and proud veteran of the Polish Army.  

I had the great privilege of meeting him when I went on a Classrooms Without Borders Trip with Tzipy Gur. These trips are organized around following a Holocaust survivor back to their country, to trace their life story. We who go with them—teachers, professors, high school students, regular folks--- are their mobile support system. It was Manny’s job to show us everything about his life in Poland before and during WWII. 

While serving in the Polish army, Manny became a POW. When he was released and returned home to his family in Poland, he was imprisoned again. The Lodz ghetto was notorious—worse than the Warsaw ghetto in lots of ways. Getting to the “Aryan” side to trade for food was almost impossible, because armed security shot people on sight, and surrounding the ghetto was a German ethnic minority that sided with the Nazis. Chaim Rumkowski, the chairman of the Judenrat, ruled the Lodz ghetto with an iron fist. People called him “King Chaim.” Rumkowski falsely believed that as long as he provided workers for the Nazis, at whatever cost, Jews would survive. Men, women and children worked in slave camps inside the Lodz ghetto, first for 1200 calories a day, then 900, then 700, then less. Manny spoke of him with no affection. 

Manny worked as a fireman in the ghetto—a way to get more food to his family. When Manny spoke of this, he cried. He was still, 70+ years later, not proud of having used his position as a firefighter in the ghetto to help feed his mother and sisters. At what cost, he said. It had taken bread from others. I imagine survivor guilt is deep and complicated. Seeing Manny cry was startling. He was upbeat, athletic, hard to keep up with. He could walk all of us into the ground. He was 96 years old at the time of this trip. 

We walked around the site of the Lodz ghetto, and then we went to the Lodz cemetary, where we looked in vain for the spot Manny had dug his father’s grave so many years before. We could not find it—but we did find the still open pits Jews had been forced to dig for Nazis to execute them in to. Luckily, those giant pits gaped back up at us—empty. Those were ones they hadn’t had time to shoot anybody in to.

We accompanied Manny to Birkenau, where he saw his mother and sister for the last time. Several of us went up in one of the Nazi guard posts with Manny, to look out over the sprawling complex, full of skeletal fireplaces; the remains of barracks that had burned, each in as rigidly straight order as a mammoth board game. Manny stood there looking out over the grounds. There was mist rising from the grass—miles of it. He turned to us, and said, “This is my victory. I am here and they are not!” 

Earlier, at the umschlagplatz, the German word for the place the Nazis took Jews to board trains to death camps, many of us were stunned by the train car, still there on the tracks. Some of us got inside with the educator on the trip, Jonty Blackman, who read a poem from a different survivor out loud, and had us consider the situation of those trapped inside. We prayed. We cried, shell shocked, deeply sad. 

When we circled up, there was Manny, holding his daughters’ hands. He raised his frail fist, and said, “Chazak V’A’Matz! Strength and Courage!” Some of us laughed. Some of us cried more. We all felt braced and comforted. Here was our charge—the one WE were supposed to be supporting—the one who a few moments ago, had been staring up the train tracks by himself, lost in thought. Thinking of what? The last time he had seen his beloved sisters? What it had been like in that crowded, desperate train ride? He told us he knew what was about to happen to his family, and that he was not going to tell them, because…why? 

I won’t ever know the answer to those questions. But I do know this: as we turned our tear-stained faces toward Manny, he, having lost his first family, and his beloved wife just a few years earlier than the trip back to Poland, told us to be of strength and good courage, as God said to Joshua in the Torah. And we were made stronger by it. 

A year or so later, he and his oldest daughter came to my daughter’s Bat Mitzvah and danced in my child's honor. It was a beautiful thing. 

Manny walked every day in Squirrel Hill for his health. After the war, he was a candy maker here in the states. He had beloved grandchildren. He worked with the Pittsburgh Holocaust Center to educate people about the effects of hatred and genocide. He sang Polish lullabies to the adopted baby of a candy maker on Forbes Avenue. His face radiated sweetness. 

Tonight, I am so honored to light the first candle of my chanukkiah in honor of Manny Kolski, Holocaust survivor, educator, candy maker, father, grandfather, and a shining light unto the world forever, for being a kind man, a giving man, a sweet man. If he could find—and be light in the darkness, so can we. One breath, one step, one moment at a time. 

You are each a light in my life, and I am grateful for all of you. Thank you so much for being you, and adding to my life as you do. Much Love, Ms. May/Sheila 

Obituary: Manuel Kolski

P-G: Manny Kolski

Light One Candle by Peter, Paul and Mary

Thursday, October 15, 2020

Pittsburgh Public Schools Teachers Are Writing Their Wills

 Last night, my 29-year old daughter picked at the wooden veneer on my kitchen table and said, "Mom...I should probably write a will." She's a social studies teacher in the Pittsburgh Public Schools. In a month and a day, she, and all of us employed by PPS, will be forced to go back to school in person..whether we, like Sarah, have serious underlying health problems that could make a case of COVID-19 fatal, or not. 

Pittsburgh Public Schools is not offering teachers with COVID-risk factors an option to continue to teach virtually after November 9th. Sit with that a minute. You read it right. 

All teachers MUST report in person on that date, no matter what their health problems might be. This has created a panic among PPS employees with risk factors. The added stress about what could happen to our medically fragile students and colleagues contributes to the pain. Thinking about the possibility of students who are orphaned by COVID-19 sickens me and keeps me up at night. I take more medication, go to the doctor more, feel sicker, and I'm in more chronic pain because of it. And I am not alone. I have friends with much more serious health problems than mine, who are much more talented educators than me, who face truly life-or-death decisions now. 

To make things worse, PPS teachers are finding the District is not approving COVID-health related leaves. Trump's appointee Scalia's Labor Department has laid out three reasons you can take a COVID-related leave: either you are caring for a child whose school is closed due to COVID, you have COVID, or you're caring for somebody with COVID. Other options available to you to avoid a possible death sentence are an ADA leave, or an unpaid FMLA leave. 

If you are a childless, not-disabled person with severe asthma, or caring for our 83-year old mother-in-law who has severe COPD---too damn bad, says Pamela Harbin, Sylvia Wilson, Kevin Carter, Terry Kennedy, Devon Taliaferro, Sala Udin, Bill Gallagher, Cynthia Falls and Veronica Edwards. 

Too bad for you, your daughter, and to hell with your mother-in-law. Go back to school...and welcome to the 77th HUNGER GAMES, in which we wait to see which teacher, which aide, which janitor, which child gets sick first, who dies first. 

I can't imagine the stress of being there as kids behave as normal children do, especially after being cooped up since March at home. I can't imagine the stress of being there, trying to do my already difficult job of interesting children who are growing up in a world oriented toward video games and phones in  reading and books when my other, competing job will be to keep them safe from an invisible but deadly virus. 

Doing my job while keeping them safe from racism, ableism, misogyny, misogynoir, homophobia, transphobia, violence and school shootings was a lot. I had a plan for a school shooter-- go out the library door first so the shooter could kill me and the kids could hopefully run around my dead body and get out of the building. 

This is different. All a kid has to do is take off their mask and wipe it on somebody's face while they are horse playing-- in an an instant-- and another child and their family could be dead. It's that simple. And I'm being asked to prevent that?? HOW? DOES ANYONE ON THE BOARD HAVE ANY SCHOOL-BASED EXPERIENCE? 

Children are children. We can teach them, we can instruct them, but they ride the bus by themselves, they walk the halls by themselves, they enter the restrooms and cafeterias by themselves, and they are normal, adolescent human beings whose brains are not fully developed yet. They goof around. It's part of the beauty of being a teenager. How can I possibly keep them safe from this virus if they are in school in person? THE VIRUS IS AIR BORNE.

And what about my colleagues? As of this moment, librarians are considered itinerants, along with PE and art teachers. At the elementary level, all of these specialists are going to be on carts-- visiting classrooms, instead of classrooms visiting them. Elementary librarians have two schools each. What if a librarian goes to one of her schools, sees all 500 of her kids in one day, plus 50 teachers, the school secretary, the Vice-Principal, a janitor and two cafeteria workers-- then the next day, feeling great, goes to her next school-- and sees the 380 kids there, plus the 40 teachers, Principal, school secretary, SDSS, her bestie the school social worker in that building, and maybe the art teacher for some craft supplies, and the janitor. Two days later that librarian feels sick, takes a COVID-19 test and comes up positive. How does the District do contact tracing? Who can possibly imagine all of the people each of the people that librarian interacted with interacted with? 

During the Spanish flu, some children didn't go to school at all. The point is, they survived, the country survived, and they lived to tell about it. To me, survival must remain tantamount. The main goal. Nobody is expendable. In September, 300 children in Allegheny County got COVID-19. That was WITHOUT PPS being in session in person. What of Multisystem Inflammatory Syndrome, which could have long-term health effects upon children? Why is nobody talking about the fact that COVID-19 is more prevalent among Black and Brown children and families, who make up the majority of PPS' constituency? I feel as if I'm screaming in the dark. 

I can not imagine the reasons why Pamela Harbin, Sylvia Wilson, Kevin Carter, Terry Kennedy, Devon Taliaferro, Sala Udin, Bill Gallagher, Cynthia Falls and Veronica Edwards are forcing teachers back to school in person, with no way to stay virtual if they have at-risk factors should they contract COVID-19. But I know where I will be sending the bill for my daughter's funeral expenses, should she, God forbid, pass away due to their malfeasance. 

PGHCity Paper's Daily Allegheny County COVID case counter

COVID-19-related deaths of young teachers raises alarm

Elementary teacher dies 3 days after COVID Test

Pittsburgh-area teacher a whistle-blower for lax COVID sanitation in schools

300 Allegheny County Kids Have Contracted COVID Since Beginning of September

Call or email the PPS Board to ask them to Stay Virtual/Stay Safe

Information on Multisystem Inflammatory Syndrome

Friday, December 27, 2019

Will We Go Back to the Bad Old Days? We'll Know Today




Back in 2012, when I was a substitute for Pittsburgh Public, I worked in nine different schools, preparing under- and unused school libraries for use. A new decision by Linda Lane, the Superintendent at the time and the Board had been made. At that time, if a school could afford a librarian in their budget, they had one. Lane's decision changed librarians' jobs so that each elementary and K-8 Librarian had to go to FIVE schools. That way, the reasoning went, K-12 schools would have a librarian and the District could boast about equity for all.

My job was to go to those spider-webby, pathetic, no-book, stanky, broken furniture shells where no librarian had worked for a long time, where there was no joy, no love and definitely no place for children and make them serviceable. This position had been created by the brilliance and forethought of Barbara Rudiak, who was overseeing the Librarians at that time. She alone at the District realized that libraries had sat un- or underused for quite awhile and would need work before they would be ready for kids-- and that Librarians trying to change from serving a population of say, 500 children and 12,000 books to 2500 children and 60,000 books would not have time to do it. 

It was a great job. I loved it. I found some libraries, like my first job at Lincoln Elementary in Larmier, that just needed books put in Dewey order, and a deep clean. That historic room had a stage, where it could be that Mary Lou Williams, the mother of American jazz, may have played recitals as the little school girl she was when she went to that school. Offices were built on the stage, and it was not used as one, but part of it was still visible, its light wooden floor gleaming. The library collection was notable-- full of appropriately African-American focused biographies, picture books, etc., at many reading levels. The library there even had a cozy reading nook with carpeted stadium seating, and gigantic windows that flooded the room with light and fresh air. When I had finished my last lemon oil cleaning of the wooden shelves and created gorgeous displays of lovely books, I was happy, my Principal was happy, and I was optimistic about my next placement. 

Then I got to Manchester K-8 in Manchester, on the North Side. I swear to God, that locked door on the second floor creaked open when we got the key, with some difficulty. It screakked open like a horror movie, telling us DON'T GO IN THIS ROOM--- EVER. The janitor left, and I entered. What I saw was not like Lincoln. It was what I imagine a prison library might look like in Alabama if the people running it really, really hated the inmates. You can find the story of what happened here.

I went to seven different schools after that, all of them in varying states of disarray, despair and dissolution. I wrote blog posts about it. With Jessie Ramey, the Yinzercation community, and people of good faith everywhere, we did more book drives for those libraries. I did not get hired by Pittsburgh Public Schools, although I hoped with the hard work I had done, the advocacy for the school libraries, the total rehab of one of their school libraries through my 24/7 obsessive work-- I might. Nope. I found a job with the Carnegie Library of Pittsburgh and started a different journey.

What happened to those libraries and librarians, when they went from one library to five? Let's start with the librarians. Some used other teaching certifications to get other jobs in the PPS-- fleeing the set-up for failure as soon as they could. Some left the district-- some of the best librarians in our field.  Some hung in there and tried as hard as they could to manage seeing children every 6 days-- as elementary and some K-8's are on a 6-day schedule. That meant that in the name of "equity," the kids who had had a great librarian and library now lost that program entirely, unless their school had the funds to pay for a full-time librarian differently. Only Colfax, to my knowledge, did that, retaining the magical Jane McKee.

The other kids saw a librarian three times a month, at most. If the school was large, and there were, say five rounds of Kindergarten, the librarian might only see Kindergarten one of those days. The Principal might decide the other days (2 that month) would be devoted to the five rounds of first grade she had, and 5 rounds of second grade, meaning that third through eighth grade had no library at all. The equity plan was not equitable at all.

During the 15 days the librarian was not in the library, teachers, staff, etc., "borrowed" items from libraries, meaning well, I am sure. Libraries began to lose irreplaceable books at a record rate. Since books run around $25/each, and the staff member who is meant to care for the collection was no longer there, libraries bled expensive materials. When children looked for sequels, beloved favorites, nonfiction they needed, they could not find them. With fewer important and relevant books and no librarian present, libraries began to feel irrelevant-- especially because, with nobody in the library, Principals started to forget about how important libraries were.

My sub work had only taken me to nine libraries. We have 54 schools in our District. That means that 45 schools were not prepared for kids-- although, of course, some of those had full-time librarians. Whatever the number of libraries is that needed rehab--- they did not receive it before their children arrived. At least two libraries to this day are not cataloged. One shares a classroom with a Social Studies teacher, who has commandeered the circulation desk. The Librarian has a tiny desk in which he has to check out books and scrunch to see kids.

Faison was one of Pittsburgh Public Schools' jewels. Newly built in Homewood, it was a glorious building boasting an operatically fine school library, shaped like a ship, with the tallest windows shining down on a huge, carpeted stadium seated story circle. It had a giant office for the Librarian, who at that time was Ginger Lambeth, an expert in collection development. Her collection would make any librarian cry real tears of joy. She must have had 12 different Martin Luther King Jr. biographies-- all in different reading levels, so that when his birthday came around, children at Faison could be successful in reading about him. Snake books, shark books, scary books, funny books, joke books-- the hits!! She had them, and she had them in great numbers, so that every child who visited could find something they loved that they could read. She collected the very finest, rare African-American folk tales by true masters like Virginia Hamilton, Gerald McDermott, the Pinkneys, San Souci.

Now Faison's bookshelves are all but empty. Reading Is Fundamental gives paperback books away during the Librarian's periods with children, and by the Principal's orders, she is relegated to helping them, not running her classes. Because the library had been broken in to classrooms, one of them a science classroom, the librarian is occasionally sprayed with bugs, like living confetti, in the books that remain.

Lincoln's library, the one I so proudly put back together, lemon oiling that lovely light wood before I set up the prettiest and most interesting books on display, has been destroyed in favor of a "STEAM" room. All the books the author of this destruction chose to keep from the collection are in the tiny little book nook, which used to have the stadium seating for kids to listen to stories in.

Our Superintendent now, Dr. Hamlet, undid some of the damage Dr. Lane and that Board did. He and that iteration of the Board made each Librarian have two libraries instead of five. This has been a much better arrangement. However, enormous problems remain. When Principals retain a line-item for library budgets, they almost invariably keep it, and do not give it to the librarian to purchase books. This is especially troubling as we come out of the five-librarian regime. The need to undo damage is desperate, and many Principals do not currently understand what a good librarian does, or what a good library program looks like. It's been a long time since they saw one.

That being said, Principals everywhere are forcing Librarians during Library periods to put students on Edmentum, Naviance, Credit Recovery, etc. in order for kids to prepare for standardized tests, etc. In Jane McKee's library at Colfax, the new librarian is being made to teach typing. Although this should not need to be said, library is a time for children that should exist out of the norm of the school day. It should not be about work sheets, standardized tests, reading levels, math, or boring things of any kind. It should be about imagination, joy, fun, characters, love, acceptance, other cultures, meeting children where they are, and celebrating the excitement of books-- and/or building that excitement.

That building is the project of library. Anything outside of the building of joy around books is a mistake. Principals and admin MUST allow Librarians, the only teacher in the building who is required to have a Master's Degree, to do our jobs the way we have been trained to do them. This is not happening in most places.

This, along with not allowing the librarians library budgets, accounts in part for our "achievement gap." Hiring "librarians" who are teachers with other teaching certifications who did not obtain an MLIS from an ALA-certified school is another one-- the only form of training available to become a librarian. Living in Pittsburgh, the city from which you have only to move if you are African-American to obtain a better life is another. (Pittsburgh Race Report) Some of the worst air, water and soil quality in the country. Mismanagement of librarians and library resources for at least a decade in our District..the list goes on.

All of this has lead me to this final point: Look. The geographic areas of our city with the highest concentrations of poverty and African-American children have unfunded school libraries. Why is this of particular importance, besides the vulnerability of the children? Because you can't always walk to a public library. When I did my student teaching at Faison, little ones came in crying on more than one occasion because a drive-by had them dodging and hiding behind cars on their walk to school. Children need to get books to put in their backpacks at school, and return them to school, even if the greatest public library in the world is five doors down. And not just because of drive-bys. Some kids have to take care of siblings, elder family members, or work after school. They need their school library to function.

Faison, Westinghouse-- no school library budget. That's Homewood.

Arlington is a new building, and it was built without a library. So there's that for the kids on the South  Side.

Miller and Weil haven't had a Librarian all year, although Weil just got one. U-Prep just got a Library budget, but it is limited. So that's the Hill.

King and Morrow have no Library budget. I have a decent one at Perry, and my Principal supports me. I am so very grateful. Thank God!! But the babies on the North Side deserve better.

The current iteration of the Pittsburgh Public Schools Board of Directors has laid out the following incredible scenario: after approving most of Dr. Hamlet's decisions for the years of his tenure, they find his spending out of control and controversial. They disapprove of this, and want change. However, they have not raised taxes to meet the needs of school children in five years. So-- they approved a higher budget, but will not raise taxes to fund their budget because of their concerns about Dr. Hamlet's spending. That means that as of January first, the school District will shut down for lack of funds unless today, they come to some compromise and change their thinking.

Some Board members are loudly calling for cuts, which mean cutting staff and programs. The last things they added were school nurses and librarians. I dearly hope we do not go back to the bad old days of one librarian for five schools. Our children deserve so much more.

I am exhausted. My heart hurts. Every Board member should spend one full day in a different school once a week, talking and mostly listening to teachers and children, not administration. We are the ones in the trenches, and we know what is going on.

I hope very much, that unlike the Principal of one of those schools I subbed in in 2012, the Board members have not decided that the District would be better off "charterized." But I fear that is the goal and the direction of too many of them. We'll see. And until we see what they will do, we teachers and librarians will do what we always do: love on kids. It's our daily work, and it is worth while. Parents: you hold all the cards. Please, please make your opinions known about what you want. A tax increase to fund our city's future. A line item for library budgets controlled by Ann Fillmore, the person in charge of school libraries, not school Principals. A high standard for hiring school librarians. No standardized-testing prep and no computers in Library class!! And let TEACHERS TEACH!!






Monday, March 5, 2018

Fresh Fruits and Vegetables instead of Sodium and MSG: Perry Food Pantry Refrigerator Fund Raiser



Hello! Last year, the Gender-Sexuality Alliance at Perry High School discussed why kids sometimes come to school angry, tired and ready to fight. We decided that sometimes, it has to be because of factors like food insecurity. As a school group committed to fighting all kinds of intersecting oppressions, we decided to open a student-run food pantry in our school.

With our partner, Mary Shull, and the Greater Pittsburgh Community Food Bank, we now distribute around 1000 pounds of food a week to kids. However, our goal has changed a bit. We see our peers consuming products that are high in sodium and MSG, and we know our communities are the ones hit hardest by high blood pressure, heart disease, strokes, etc. So, we decided we needed to get more fresh fruit, greens, and vegetables into our peers' hands.

That's why we really need a refrigerator. Will you please help us with our goal? This fund-raising project will fund a refrigerator, and keep our food bank running. We are so grateful!

Go Fund Me: Perry Food Bank Refrigerator



Friday, March 2, 2018

#Education Spring

                                                                                                        

Three students and I just made a plan for how we'll survive a school shooting. It's our first lock-down drill, and at an unspecified time, we are to lock our doors, cover our windows, turn off our lights and computers, get kids away from windows and doors, get everyone to turn off their phones (because a ding from a phone will let the shooter know where a child is hiding.) We are to sit, in silence, and wait for an administrator, security or law enforcement to unlock my door. Because any noise, any light, any movement, any sight of us, could mean one or all of us could die-- if this was real.

I am scared. I know it's a drill. I know there's no shooter. But I'm still scared, because having a drill makes it more real. And even though my kids are very aware that school shootings mostly happen in white, suburban schools, we all know Trump has had an electrifying effect on white supremacists in America.

When the drill happens, I'll need to go out into the hall to lock my door. I'll look for kids in the hall to grab and get in my room. We'll get to a "safe" place. We'll sit and try to be quiet. Here's a few of my fears:

* How do I help kids with PTSD, who are traumatized by this drill? If I can't handle somebody's emotional reaction, and if that reaction imperils my other kids while we are hunkered down hiding, what do I do?
* Once the drill is over, and we are back to this new "normal," how do I help those students in my school who have experienced trauma deal with a continuing cycle of being re-traumatized by this experience?
* We don't have the resources to handle the traumatized kids we have already. We have two social workers, who are extremely busy. We have three counselors. On March 7th, I will be proctoring the new way our District has found to evaluate school counselors: by having seniors do a long, computer-based survey, about how many times they have interacted with the counselors, if they've been helpful with college stuff, paperwork, etc. As far as I know, counselors will be held at least partially accountable to whether seniors in springtime, being forced to evaluate their school counselor, take that survey seriously.

During the drill, there were no kids in the Library (this time.)  But we talked before they left for class about what to do. Don't get bottled up-- don't hide in a place you can't get escape from, if you can help it. Fight and distract the shooter if you have to, but getting out is the best way, probably. l told them I would check first to see if anybody was outside the exit with a gun. If someone was, we could be trapped. I *forgot to tell them: if I get shot, run around me, don't stand there. Don't be an easy target. Don't huddle together. You'll be easier targets that way. Spread out. Next time, I'll remember to tell them all of that.

* I'm afraid my big words about "run around me," (meaning my dead or dying body) are too brave. What if in the face of this kind of danger, I freeze, cry, get hysterical, am entirely useless? It happens to trained, armed people all the time. What makes me think I'm a hero?

* What if we are instructing our next shooter what to do?

* How do children who experience gun violence in communities receive this, beyond my speculations and incidental conversations with kids? Where is the research on the affect these drills will have on my particular children?

I lay down between the Library stacks. I was afraid to sneeze. I was afraid to look at my phone, because even though I had the ringer off, what if a video or something started to play? It was too dark to read a book, and I couldn't concentrate. Security came and rattled the door. Once. Twice. Three times.

I had to pee. I thought of David Hogg at Parkland, who had the presence of mind during AN ACTUAL SCHOOL SHOOTING to interview the kids HE WAS HIDING WITH so he could document the experience. So we can learn from it. This child is someone special. I KNEW it was my own security guards out there, I had nobody to save but myself, and I was too scared to sneeze.

* Florida's Governor wants to put armed guards in every school in his state. Follow the money: what a bump in contributions he'll get from his red-state followers, the NRA, gun manufactures, etc. Ridiculous, and criminal.
* Obviously gun control is the way to solve this problem. We look to the data and experience of our well-educated global counterparts, and this truth is right there. To state something obvious, politicians who will not stand up to the gun lobby devalue the lives of American children. Police violence against people of color is tolerated and even celebrated by the current President. See this: Donald Trump Is Serious When He Jokes About Police Brutality

These politicians, unwilling to protect children, do another thing, which feels suspiciously convenient for this group: they contribute to a sense of chaos and churn for kids in schools. All this time, effort, money and thought, professional development, contracts, training, etc. around active shooter drills, when legislation is a way to fix it. I don't think it is necessarily an unhappy consequence for irresponsible politicians that these policies are all the better to push privatized educational options on families as a "safer" or better way.

Call me crazy if you want to for making that connection. I've watched my own kids' education since pre-No Child Left Behind days, until this moment. I've seen the neo-liberal attacks on public education chip away at what they had in public school, to what my students experience now. I just lived through eighteen months in which my Superintendent called out Pittsburgh teachers' demands for better pay, health care and educational conditions in ways that felt hurtful and disrespectful. I'm watching Butler teachers get ready to strike. I'm in awe of the monumental work the West Virginia teachers are doing to save their entire state from austerity. Teachers, students and families in Chicago battle for their children's schools' very right to exist in Black and Brown communities, (See this: On The Last Day of Black History Month, Chicago School Board Votes to Close 5 Black Schools) and so much more.

What began as a movement by young people in Florida after Trayvon Martin was murdered, was followed by the young adults in Ferguson who rose up against the murder of Michael Brown, to brave activists insisting #BlackLivesMatter, to the Parkland students, who are changing corporate policies, and now teachers battling for their kids across the country-- it feels like an #EducationSpring.

Unfettered school shootings because our politicians put money over gun control, police officers murdering Black children with impunity, and the violence that comes when schools are kept churning and chaotic by austerity measures while we spend $610 billion on our military budget, are all interconnected oppressions our teachers and students have been fighting for a long time-- in the streets. It's time we ALL joined them.

While I was writing this, there was a shooting at Central Michigan University.

NYT: WV teachers' strike

Saving West Virginia

Arming Teachers Will Only Increase the Chance of a School Shooting

https://marchforourlivespetition.com/

Staceyann Chin: All Oppression Is Connected


Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Pro-Child, Pro-Teacher



"As adults, it is our responsibility to work together toward this common goal. And while the district and the union may differ on some points, I believe we can move forward in a spirit of mutual respect, setting an example - even now - for the children we serve," said Dr. Anthony Hamlet, Superintendent of Pittsburgh Public Schools. 



 As adults, Dr. Hamlet, let's level with each other. There is a lot of work to be done in our District. I know you know this. However, there is work I attack daily that I am sure you don't know about, because you simply have not been in my shoes (or in my school) long enough, or authentically enough, to understand what's grittily real here. 
We have a student-run food bank, but no working computer lab. We have a teacher who has been turned down repeatedly for a class set of textbooks for his classroom, so he spends his time copying the tattered remains of the teacher's edition to teach with. We have teachers who do Donor's Choose fund raisers for pencils. 
Today, I spent a lot of my day comforting children facing trauma and need in their lives. That's my job, and I love it, and I love them. One of my colleagues left the building in tears, because she had had one too many classes scream curses and taunts at her, and she just needed a break from the heartbreak. She'll be back tomorrow. She loves her students with all of her heart. She's an adult, and she is committed to her work.  
Firstly: if we, meaning not just you and I, but yourself and all the teachers in this District, are to work together toward a common goal, you are going to have to drop the inflammatory language you are using to shield yourself and the Board who hired you from blame about the break down in negotiations of our contract. 
 In a career such as ours, in which self-reflection is a daily practice, your intention behind the usage of the phrase "as adults" should be clear. Infantilizing teachers in an attempt to make our efforts to negotiate a better deal for the District's teachers and children won't work. Pittsburgh Public Schools' parents know who we are. They know we love their children. They know we don't take the idea of striking lightly. For many of us, an unknown number of weeks off without a paycheck represents a serious financial risk in our lives. But, for a year and half, our union's efforts to negotiate common-sense measures to protect the quality of the classroom experience for children have been met with stonewalling and flat-out denials. 

Here's what we know. Parents want smaller student-to-teacher ratios. They want expert teachers working with the appropriate grade levels and subject areas, and they want teachers who strive to further their own educational levels and masteries. They want the best teachers available in the field, who can choose to work in challenging schools without being financially penalized. They want coaches who know and love their children, and who are compensated well. They want Pre-K teachers who are the top of their field, and who can afford to stay in the classroom as a long-term career. 

These things are ALL pro-child. What they also are, unfortunately for folks who have to be elected, is tax-payer funded. I am sure no Board member or Superintendent wants to discuss raising taxes to fund Pre-K teachers, for example. Why don't we work on elevating public attention to things that undercut funding for public schools together, such as the corrupt EITC system, which allows wealthy folks to fund private and parochial schools with money that could fund public education? Or why our elected city officials seem to have so little interest in garnering equitable funding for our public schools? We know Pittsburgh Public Schools has money in reserve. Let's spend it on the children in front of us, and then work together to secure extra funding we need. 
So, please-- don't stoop to dog whistling with comments such as "as adults," and "set an example for the children we serve," when teachers are the ones getting ready to sacrifice on the grocery bill, and when they are calling their credit card and mortgage companies to discuss the possibility of upcoming late payments, as they prepare for the possibility of a strike.
If we strike, I will be setting an example I will be proud of for the children of Pittsburgh Public Schools, because I will be sacrificing for what I love and believe in: my students. So will ALL of my colleagues. Walking a picket line for no pay, in order to provide smaller classes and better prepared colleagues for my students is pro-child, pro-parent, and pro-Pittsburgh Public Schools.  Let's be adults and agree that nobody has to.
 

Sunday, January 21, 2018

Will the Truth Out? A Strike May Be the Catalyst.



I collect masks. I think they are beautiful, but I only collect masks with open mouths. I like the metaphor, of course: we hide behind them, we use them to become someone else, but for me, an open mouth means these masks demand to be "heard." They need to look as if they are ready to speak, or are speaking, or singing aloud for me to want to hang them on the wall. I like a mask that nobody shuts down.

Mask are symbolically important, and "we," meaning everybody, wears them at times. Teachers wear them, in lots of contexts. We wear them when we are with parents. There's a thing a veteran teacher taught me when I was starting out-- the "teacher head cock." It goes like this. When the parent of a particulary challenging kid asks how their student is doing, you cock your head a minute, and smile. This gives you a second to catch your breath and think before you blurt out something too blunt. In those occasions before I learned it, the non-professional, human side of me wanted to say something like, "Yo, come get your kid! He needs to spend waaaaaaayyyyy less time on an ipad or in front of a screen at home and waaaaayyyy more time outside running around, and then in your lap with a book!" But then I mastered the teacher head cock. So, I would cock my head, smile, and say something like, "Well...Johnny has a lot of wonderful energy that we are working on harnessing toward his goals."

A mask, of sorts. Then there's the mask you wear when you write publicly about your life as an educator. You want to write as bluntly as you think, but to do so, you run the risk of exposing confidentialities of childrens' lives you are professionally and ethcially bound to protect. To state the obvious, those confidentialities must never be broken.

You also run the risk, as our District and union begin the last round of negotiations on January 23rd and 26th before a possible strike vote, of exposing things that could hamper negotiations. Here are a few things that are in the public domain, which I can discuss openly.

A strike means that almost 25,000 children will not be in school during the length of a standoff, which to my mind could and should have been prevented by the District. Some kids will have babysitters, or stay in warm, organized, food-stocked homes during that time, with activities and supervision. In many, many homes, this strike could cost so much more: the safety of kids, ultimately.

True, I'm a passionate union member, but the issues are common sense and should have been agreed to by the District a year and a half ago: pay new teachers the same as veterans, and not based on a silly scale that even the impartial arbiter found to be unfair. Pay Pre-K teachers, bound to have the same education and certifications as every other teacher, the same as every other teacher. Lower class sizes by 5 children so they can get better one-on-one instruction. Give coaches, who sacrifice time with their families, a raise. (They haven't had one in TEN YEARS.) Allow teachers to retain their voice in helping their principals make their teaching schedules, instead of erasing any voice or choice in who, what or when they teach.

Why does that last matter? Because a fifth grade science teacher has a K-5 certification, but might be an expert at dealing with pre-adolescents, and have spent years building their expertise and craft teaching scientific principles and discovery to this age group. A Kindergarten teacher quits, moves or gets rated out, so a capricious, inept or malicious Principal (news flash: THEY EXIST) moves this 5th grade science teacher to fill the Kindergarten hole in the schedule. What happens to the students who lose their expert science teacher? What happens to the Kindergarten children, who have one crack at Kindergarten, now faced with a well meaning, but inexpert teacher of this age group?

The problem might be with how our state certifies teachers. But that is outside of this union-District discussion. And everything these negotiations do must be focused on how it affects CHILDREN, first and foremost. When the District begins to authentically respect teachers enough to place them in decision making roles alongside those principals, you'll know that kids are being placed first and foremost. So much more to say there: but. Teachers are chronically afraid to speak out about what they think could improve in their schools for fear of backlash to their ratings, their schedules, etc. That's me stepping out from behind my mask. There. I did it.

You need to eat. You need to pay your bills. Most importantly, you need to keep going to a job that allows you to work with kids whose lives your life is entwined with. They have one shot at filling out FAFSAs, filling out college applications, writing college essays, choosing colleges they talk about the pros and cons with you about, checking out books that could change them forever,  having somebody to talk to alone about what the hell is going on at home and at work and with boys and/or girls with, writing great papers (maybe with your help), learning NOT to Google sources for papers, having a safe place every day at lunch to be with their friends when everywhere else is unsafe and scary, charge their phone, use the in-school food bank, create an in-school food bank, create committees and clubs and projects. You wear the God-damned mask you hate and that burns you up because you are in love with your students, and you need them as much as they need you.

"But," as Shakespeare said, "in the end, the truth will out." Eventually. If there is a strike vote, I predict that the union members will vote overwhelmingly for a strike. And then some teachers' masks will slip a little. You could hear stories teachers want to tell you about what holds our schools back from being as great as they can be, that we are afraid to share, for fear of backlash, retribution and unfair consequences. And that could be the best thing for public education in Pittsburgh that has happened in a long time. Because while masks can be protective, and necessary, they can also cloud truth. And only truth unmasked can begin to heal what is wrong.

In Solidarity.



Monday, December 4, 2017

Be a Light and Shelter for LGBTQIA Children in a Season of Darkness





When I was an elementary school Librarian, I chose winter to teach Hans Christian Andersen as a long author study. We started with his winter stories: The Steadfast Tin Soldier, The Snow Queen, The Little Match Girl. Andersen's tales, as he originally wrote them, and not pre-digested into a Disney remix, are not well known among kids today. That's one of the reasons I taught them. Other reasons are the ambrosial language, the celebration and elevation of the underdog, how Andersen's stories build empathy, sensitivity, and an awareness of others, as well as context and culture, and how they speak to children as if they are real people-- that is, they often express the world as it really is.

The Little Match Girl is a story that does that. A little girl, abused and unloved by her father, is set out in the streets to sell matches. It is freezing, but she knows if she doesn't sell her quota, she'll be beaten and turned out again. She stays in the snow, forlorn, one over-sized slipper lost, as happy Christmas shoppers rush past her. She looks in the windows of the bakeries she passes and remembers dinners with a Grandmother her loved her. She passes homes, in which happy families decorate trees. Finally, she sits and tries to warm herself, and watches the stars. In the morning, the townspeople find her, frozen, and they realize that as they celebrated Christ's birth, among them, a child they despised died because of their neglect.

For gay and trans kids, acceptance at home and school is a matter of life and death. That's what I learned when Project Silk, an advocacy group for young people of color who are gay or transgender, came as guest speakers to Perry Library's Student-Staff Book Club last week. We were wrapping up our second book choice of the year, The 57 Bus, by Dashka Slater. The 57 Bus is a book about an agender teen who is critically burned by another teen on a bus ride home.

Richard and Michael, our Project Silk presenters, told us about a cycle that can too often drag young gay and trans kids of color into a life of crime, sex work and death. It can start in school, and it can work like this: 

Thrown out at home for being gay or trans, harassed and bullied at school for being who they are, kids often have no alternative but to live in the streets. Doubly discriminated against, they can't get hired for a job. This can lead to young people turning to sex work to survive-- some as young as thirteen or fourteen. Picked up by police for doing sex work, they go to jail, where they are often harassed, assaulted, and sometimes even raped.

 Richard said that when fighting to protect themselves, young gay or trans people have a tendency sometimes to "do the most." Who could blame a person who had been subject to so much for so long? Unfortunately, this can place the young person on an additional terrible cycle: discriminated against within the criminal justice system, gay and trans youngsters sometimes are blamed for defending themselves. Without a place to live, transportation or money, it is hard to make it to court dates reliably, on time, dressed presentably, with adequate legal representation, and pay legal fines and fees on time, or at all. This can place a young, now offender, even deeper within the cycle. 

I asked Richard and Michael how we interrupt this cycle. Their response? Do everything you can to make school a safe place. Make it a haven, where kids who are unloved and unrespected at home find a shelter. Teachers, students, and administrators alike: this is our calling within this season of darkness and light. We are called upon to be sheltering place for the unwanted child. We are called upon to light up the dark. No matter what one's religious or ethical training, we are responsible for all of us, most especially children. Love and light to all of us-- especially our LGBTQIA children.

NYT Magazine: The 57 Bus

Project Silk

Friday, October 27, 2017

Break Me On Life's Wheel

I have thought "Break me on life's wheel," would be a good adage for my life, and I have tried to live that way-- so much so that I thought for a long time I'd paint a giant canvas full of cogs and wheels, to remind myself. I try to live as fearlessly as I can-- for my students and for myself. Live so hard, so outside the usual, so big-- that the calendar, the wheel of events itself runs right off its post.

It's good to break. It's good to lean in to pain and tragedy. I'm trying, when things from outside and inside just pulverize me. But it's so much easier to redirect pain into something nicer. 

Today I was in a really low place. I left the Library, to go see teachers and kids, who were excitedly setting up for an after-school Halloween party. I thought I would stay, but I couldn't even manage to help them. I was down, actually heartbroken. Too much tragedy in my kids' lives, a story that I have become aware of that feels too close to home. I took my sour face out of there, and was walking back to the Library when a colleague needed a break in the ISS room. It was on my way. I stopped, went into the ISS room, while he ran out for a second. 

A kid said something dumb. I redirected him. Another kid said-- "Don't disrespect Ms. May. She's like-- the mother of the school." And then the kids started to argue over which powerful, beautiful colleague of mine was the "real" mother of the school, along with me. One kid, the one I had initially redirected, started to passionately argue that the "real" mother of the school is Mrs. Sharon Brentley-- an African-American woman who remembers being spit on, when she and her husband helped to integrate Perry as school children. The one arguing for her? He's been known to use the "n" word toward kids who don't look like him.

I'm not going to say it made everything right. But it reminded me-- there is light in the dark. Much love.



Wednesday, October 18, 2017

An Open Letter to the Students of Brooke High School




Hello. You don't know me, but many of you, and your parents, hate my guts. I don't hate you. At all. I understand completely, and fully, that I do not know you. But I do know one thing: you and I have a chance to learn from each other.

I am a high school Librarian. I LOVE my job. I LOVE my school and my students. I think of them as my own children. If I worked in your school, I would think of you as my own children, too. It's a magical thing that happens to teachers: our hearts stretch, the longer we are in a classroom, and we find our capacity for love increases with the number of children we get to know. I hope that in this letter, I can be of some service to you.


I grew up poor, white, and rural. I dreamed of having clean, white leather tennis shoes and pants long enough to cover my skinny ankles. Instead, I had funky Kmart burgundy tennis shoes and hand-me-down jeans, floods--showing off 3 inches of mismatched socks. My immediate family was unabashedly racist. It bothered me. I grew up, somehow made it to college, and learned better, because I liked to read, and the university I attended was a great one. I became a school librarian because I love books, and I love kids.


Several weeks back, a friend of mine messaged me a picture her husband sent her from the Perry football game he was attending. You were the opposing team. Some of you had painted a big banner that read, "Trump Perry." It was in all red, white and blue, and the President's hair was drawn over his name. In the picture, you were behind the banner. You looked like an all-white crowd dressed in red, white, and blue, holding your arms out with a #1, or, in a few cases, flipping the bird.


I gaped at it, stunned. Then I went to Brooke's Twitter account and got a better, more frontal view of the banner, and of you behind it, and had the same reaction: from the gut: like someone had punched me. Irrationally, as I am 50, white, and was far away from where the banner was being held, I felt frightened. Then, I felt incredulous, and sick to my stomach. I thought: "Why are these kids doing something so cruel and heartless?" I tweeted, retweeting the picture your school had put on their account, and wrote: "My mostly Black, inner-city school played this team last night and were confronted w/this. Sickening racism."


The banner became a story that went places. The Pittsburgh paper covered it, the USAToday covered it, some other local and national papers covered it. I started getting hundreds of hate tweets from folks who thought what I had said about the banner was itself racist. Never mind that the definition of racism says this:



rac·ism
ˈrāˌsizəm/
noun
  1. prejudice, discrimination, or antagonism directed against someone of a different race based on the belief that one's own race is superior.


so--me talking to white people as an example of "racism" is nonsense.


It didn't occur to me until weeks later that I hadn't stopped to analyze what my own reaction to "Trump Perry" meant. Why had I reacted with fear, anger, and the desire to protect my students-- just to the President's name? Why had that image created such an intense response in me-- when people who were tweeting at me, furious, claimed not to have had any ill intent at all? Some of you started tweeting at me-- some openly, some of you privately. Some of you were red-hot angry. Some of you called me names, mocking me, my school, my students. Some of you were polite, and just asking: Why are you saying this is racist? We didn't mean it to be!! We had no ill-intention! More than one of you was ashamed, apologetic.


If we were together right now, this is what I would say to you, face to face: I was scared when I saw your banner. This is why: for my students, there are implicit dangers to living in America. Those dangers are especially pronounced when entering a mostly white community. And my students were a long bus ride away from home.


Many of you may honestly not know that, because you are not Black. You haven't walked through the world as a Black person in America, lived the history of a Black person in America, or grown up as a Black person in America.


That's not meant as a put-down or in any way as an angry statement toward you. I'm white. But the banner your school put up at the football game was a mistake. Whether you were part of it or not, whether you were for or against it, here are some facts:


1. The parents of the only Black player on your team asked the Custodian in your school to take the banner down. The Custodian asked the Principal to take it down. Your Principal refused. It is clear that for at least one person in your community before the game, this banner was a problem. To his credit, your Principal has admitted not listening to the parent was a big mistake. However: this incident should begin to start making you ask: whose voices are elevated in your school? Why? Why not?

2. Every high school team trades film before football games, usually a week in advance. Your football team would have seen film of our team a week before we played. Your team knew our team was primarily African-American. Who knew that, other than the team, is something only you know.
3. It is time for you to understand that Black people have experienced, and experience America differently than white people do, and that to be a good person, and a good American, you individually, and collectively must be sensitive to that fact, work to deepen your understandings about what that means and why that is, and take on your work as an American.

The "Trump Perry" incident happened within an educational setting. The work to set it right can and should be educational. If we all are humble enough to acknowledge the need to keep learning, we will all come out the better. Here are some things I have learned, both while doing my undergraduate and graduate work, and while having the privilege of working in a racially diverse school district.


We white people live in a world where our race is invisible to us. That is a function of a thing, a term, called whiteness. It's related to white privilege, something we all have, if we are white, no matter how poor, how hard we had or have it, where we are from, or where we are going. It's just a fact in America that if you are white-- you have a kind of privilege you didn't earn.


Check this out: Unpacking the Invisible Knapsack


I had white privilege when I was that ten-year old in my weird shoes and floods, because I wasn't going to be profiled by a racist power structure-- police in the street, teachers, store owners, doctors, Principals-- few of them saw me as a physical threat, followed me around stores, thinking I was going to steal because of how I looked; they didn't assume I was engaging in risky behavior if I wore a hoodie-- they thought I was most likely like their daughter at home. Because I was white.


So what is this thing I am calling whiteness?


Consider Calgary Anti-Racist Education's collection of definitions for it: Understanding Whiteness


Here is an article I like. Check it out, written by Nell Irvin Painter, who is the professor emerita of history at Princeton University. Professor Painter wrote the book, "The History of White People." What Is Whiteness?


Criminally, oppression against our Black brothers and sisters did not end with slavery, or with the Civil Rights movement. It is really important to feel the weight of history when you try to appreciate someone else's experience. For a great introduction to historical injustices suffered by Black people, read Ta-Nehesi Coates' ground breaking essay from The Atlantic, "The Case for Reparations." This is a long and kind of difficult piece, but it is worth every word.


Ta-Nehesi Coates is an incredibly important writer for you to read right now. To better understand why some people, not just myself, react to Trump's name alone as a symbol of whiteness, read this: The First White President. It is worth it to find and read a lot of what Coates writes. 


The following articles will give you background on how Trump's name is being used as a threat in schools nationwide: In Some High School Gyms, Trump's Name is a Taunt and this: Bullies Have a New Intimidation Tactic on Campus: The Name "Trump"

I think it is important to read a LOT of fiction from the perspectives of people who do not look like you, or have the same background as you. At Perry, we have a Student-Staff Book Club. Start your own. Challenge your parents, your teachers, your favorite aunt and uncle, to read with you. Here are some great books:


The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas

How It Went Down by Kekla Magoon
All American Boys by Jason Reynolds
Black Lives Matter by Sue Bradford Edwards
Between the World and Me by Ta-Nehisi Coates
The New Jim Crow by Michelle Alexander
Citizen: An American Lyric by Claudia Rankine
The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks by Rebecca Skloot
The Fire Next Time by James Baldwin
Sister Outsider by Audre Lorde

This might seems obnoxious to you; some lady from far away, who you don't know, finding something you did or didn't directly do really wrong, then lecturing you about it in a blog, and worse, presuming to give you homework and reading. Like I'm some race expert, right? Like I'm some enlightened being who knows so much about how to be "woke."


I don't. All I know is that I love my students. I am pretty sure that if I knew you well, and if you were my kids, I'd love you, too. That's what teachers do. And the best way I can love you-- from afar-- is to challenge you to be whom I- and who your teachers, administrators, school district, parents, community, and country need you to be-- people who read widely, think broadly, unlearn and relearn ideas, and try on new ways of being in this world. So-- pick up a book, read two or three of these books and/or articles, and write me a long comment about what you think about them. I'll write you back if you promise to truly think about what you read. Let's learn from each other. 


Love, Ms. May

More Book lists:

Oakland Public Library Blog
Black Lives Matter: A Reading List
Book Riot Black Lives Matter Book Video List












Thursday, August 31, 2017

Queering the Ceramics Curriculum

Every year, the Ceramics teacher does a relief-tile project with students. Kids look at the work of a famous artist, choose an image they like, and build a tile with the image in relief.

The Ceramics teacher came in to the Library today, looking for books with color reproductions of art works to take to her Ceramics studio for the project. When I was researching LGBTQIA people of color to help teach about the Day of Silence last year, I came across the artist Kehinde Wiley. I love when Wiley reimagines classical works of art, centering people of color.

When I look at a Wiley, I feel as gorgeously love-drunk as a bee afloat in a jar of honey. Afloat, and free of the material world, and in a zone where color and shapes and design reign. It is delicious. Check him out:



The Ceramics teacher listened to me kvell about Wiley, and flipped through the giant coffee-table book I was able to buy for Perry's Library. She snatched it up, as well as a big book on Banksy's work, also new to the Library, and took them up to her class to introduce to her students.

 So now, kids will have the opportunity to learn about two living artists, one of them a gay Black man who plays with ancient artistic themes and modern African-American culture, the other a mysterious entity who challenges political and cultural norms.

#SchoolLibrariesMatter
#QueerTheCurriculum
#WeNeedDiverseBooks